I didn’t know a time will come where your name won’t remind me of the stars anymore. This is the time where I’d breathe peacefully, not minding the baggage you left. It was heavy, it was hard. But I didn’t know it’s a possibility I can hold someday. A possibility of new chances without my…
Read moreSomeone who’s never mine,
…someone who can’t be mine – yet darling, someone whom I never stopped loving. Maybe you are just a theory that somehow conspired decades ago, leaving me shattered feelings, still unusual to what I’ve felt. Maybe now you are just a misunderstood belief; to regret what was done, for the proofs that we almost had….
Read moreAll my life,
I have been wondering about the flaws hidden inside my void. That maybe something is actually wrong with me. That maybe it’s not every time I succeed with all the things I wish for. Maybe sometimes, there could be a time where I won’t excel like I’m always used to. I have been grasping for…
Read moreI still need a poetry to break me.
I’m still here with my pen, writing everything that I could think of. Suddenly, it occurred to me why I am being like this — that sort of imaginative yet realistic dreamer. I wasn’t surprised when I found you in my thoughts. You are a good help. In fact, the only help I’d forever cling…
Read moreAnd yours was never mine to carry.
Somewhere in the next life, there will be a place for us. I’d see myself intertwining my fingers to your hand in reality. I’m sure by that moment, we could finally happen. But I’m not going to bring these memories chained with me in our present times. I will leave this lifetime empty-handed because that’s…
Read moreI like you,
and I talk to the moon about you — but this time, I’m waking up for mornings. I like you, but it’s not every time I write about your favorite euphoria. I like you, and I’ve watched you dance, but it’s not every time my heart would beat for your smiles. I like you, and…
Read moreYou’re still my favorite mistake.
I wish I could scrape you out of my soul forever. I’m sure my heart never stopped beating because of it. It felt wrong. It’s toxic that limits my system to fathom love again. You showed me a sin that I’d be willing to forget. I never thought loving you makes me a sinner already….
Read morePara sa aking tala,
Pwede kong isipin na ilang taon mula ngayon, ang ating mga landas ay muling magkakatagpo. Huli kang darating sa pagtitipon at ako’y kunwaring magtatago sa isang sulok. Pwede kong sabihin na muli kong maririnig ang iyong boses sa aking likuran o di kaya’y ang iyong tawa na tila isang musika sa aking tenga. Pwede kong…
Read moreAnd I thought you wouldn’t leave a scar
— but I was wrong. You were just a little wound when we first met. You didn’t hurt that bad. It was the reason why I never took the medications given to me. I thought I could ease myself like I used to. Like a tip of an arrow, a random chess piece, or a…
Read moreYou’re always an impossibility to me.
“Someone once asked me why I should wait for the next life when I can have all the things I want today. The truth is, I started giggling. It was a funny move. It made me laugh. But I knew it was a hurricane that kept me awake for nights. Maybe he’s right. You don’t…
Read moreYou are the only one I could give.
You are the only man I’d spend my one to seven lifetimes with. But I don’t know why you couldn’t see that. Maybe because I always avoid your eyes every time we meet. I’d always think if leaving you in my past life is enough. And I almost did, love – almost. Maybe because I…
Read moreHindi ko alam kung bakit,
mas pinili kong manatili sa sakit na dulot mo. Marami nang nagtatanong sa akin kung tila ba’y nahihibang na ako sa aking ginagawa; na mas mabuting kalimutan ko na ang dapat sana’y mga alaala lang. Pero hindi ko kaya. Siguro nga mas mabuting itago ko nalang ang nakaraan kesa magkunwaring hindi kita nakilala at minahal….
Read moreMga paksang akala nila’y hindi na ikaw
Hindi ko mabilang sa aking mga daliri kung ilang beses na ba kitang pinangarap. Siguro mga sampu, o mga bente, o di kaya’y kahit sa naunang buhay nating dalawa ay ikaw lang ang tanging bukambibig. Pinupuna na ako ng aking mga tula sa pagiging hibang sa talang kahit kailan ay hindi kuminang para sa akin….
Read moreKahit hindi man natin sabihin,
alam kong may mga pagkakataong nahihirapan tayong bitawan ang isang bagay. Kahit anong limot man natin, may hahatak at hahatak pa rin upang tayo’y bumalik dito. At hindi ko na iyon ipinagtataka. Lalo na’t alam kong isa ito sa mga senyales na minahal ko ito ng husto. Ngunit kailanga kong bumitiw hangga’t kaya ko pa….
Read moreYou are a voiceless echo…
Lingering in the core of my mind Distract me in my deepest sleep And no pill nor cup of coffee could help So tell me, How can I forget you When this voiceless voices are as loud as your silence Back when I said,’ Forget me so I can forget you’ – Kath Panugan
Read moreAnd we could be flames of suffering…
but we aren’t. Don’t hold back when you think the sun sets down. Remember, the stars are yet to come home again. – El
Read moreWhen everything seems falling…
Who will you be calling And when you are drowning Are you even worth saving? You worth like the sun You shine like the stars You stand out like the moon But in life, we are all a dust Folks, wake up from dreaming You might vanish without knowing No details of you will be…
Read moreIn the darkest hours…
When everything is unsure Who will I call When you are not mine anymore In the darkest hours Will my desire shape the pieces of me Or I will be drowned in reality That there’s no you beside me The bed wasn’t this big It’s a mile wide now that you left And will these…
Read moreBooks over Cellphone
A desert of books Dusks and broke What is more it can When pages are left behind Oh! Young folks, There’s more to life What a beautiful life Don’t be blind by the fake light Put that weapon down This room is falling down Aren’t you sick of it Your time is what…
Read moreAs I was feeling the particularity of your presence in mine,
I also wanted to just forget what I felt during the crisp of our good old days – back to our childish sixth grade. How many poems do I need to write to prove to everyone that I am no longer in love with you? How many fate or assumptions, carols and Decembers, giddy eye-seeking…
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