I can’t wait for the day where you’ll finally notice I’m not your biggest fan anymore. Or the annoying one. Or the girl who pushes her luck to someone who can’t love her back. I hope you figure out what happened after you lost track of me. That somehow, my smiles made you vulnerable on…
Read moreThank you for killing me.
I didn’t know a time will come where your name won’t remind me of the stars anymore. This is the time where I’d breathe peacefully, not minding the baggage you left. It was heavy, it was hard. But I didn’t know it’s a possibility I can hold someday. A possibility of new chances without my…
Read moreIntroduce me to Love
All the things before my eyes, Saw nothing but sparkles of delight. Through the window of my soul, You captured my delicate heart. For I still never know what love is, Like a dove who only knows how to fly. A baby mind that I possess, An empty cup about upbringing. You can teach me…
Read moreI like you,
and I talk to the moon about you — but this time, I’m waking up for mornings. I like you, but it’s not every time I write about your favorite euphoria. I like you, and I’ve watched you dance, but it’s not every time my heart would beat for your smiles. I like you, and…
Read moreAnd I thought you wouldn’t leave a scar
— but I was wrong. You were just a little wound when we first met. You didn’t hurt that bad. It was the reason why I never took the medications given to me. I thought I could ease myself like I used to. Like a tip of an arrow, a random chess piece, or a…
Read moreMeet me in the next lifetime.
Even if my name doesn’t sound the same way to you, even if our hearts would never meet the way we do, and even if we are destined no more, I’d still hope to meet you in my afterlife. Because in there, I know my heart would still crave for the same longing, and that’s…
Read moreYou’re always an impossibility to me.
“Someone once asked me why I should wait for the next life when I can have all the things I want today. The truth is, I started giggling. It was a funny move. It made me laugh. But I knew it was a hurricane that kept me awake for nights. Maybe he’s right. You don’t…
Read moreAnd we could be flames of suffering…
but we aren’t. Don’t hold back when you think the sun sets down. Remember, the stars are yet to come home again. – El
Read moreGusto kong aminin na kahit minsan,
isa ka sa mga naging rason kung bakit mas pinili kong mamuhay nalang sa panaginip. Ito ang mga panahong pipikit ako dahil sinunod ko ang aking puso. Pipilitin kong huwag matapos ang gabi nang hindi tayo nagpapalitan ng mga titig o di kaya’y iisiping ang iyong kamay ay nasa akin habang nagsasayawan sa ilalim ng…
Read moreIn the next lifetime,
Put a warning sign Paste it right on your forehead So I wouldn’t spend another lifetime loving someone like you, again. With that warning sign, I would know, there’s a danger awaits if I’ll insist. A lot of pieces of me were scattered already And in my next life, I will just spend my seconds…
Read moreThe moment I stopped writing about you.
I still look for you in every piece I write lately. I still look for the metaphors that described you in ways that I couldn’t. I still look for the chapters where we’ve been once, and in the paragraphs where I had my worst and in the periods where you came and saved me. I…
Read moreNever your Constant
Perhaps, I was never in my constant. I was a love yet a heartbreak at the same time. I was a coffee spill, a teardop, a heavy breeze or even a journal’s old sheet after all. Somehow, I was the hurricane behind the clouds, the never-ending movie in the cinema, the map of the lost…
Read moreWhere It all Started
Dates aren’t vivid, the moment is. You stood on that door and everything’s unsure. Surroundings seem blurry. And all I can see is you. And that’s the moment it all began. A regretful one. – Kath Panugan
Read moreWe were once cowards of love after all.
Meet me in our spot, just the same cafe four blocks away from our favorite park within Ludheg’s streetlights. Tell me how did your present life kill you and I will tell you more about mine time by time. Let’s intertwine our fingers and tangle our hearts and feel the stardusts until we could sob…
Read moreIf you will fall in love with me,
Don’t. Just don’t. You’ll just end up being sick with my playlists or being deaf with the silence of mine. You’ll just end up regretting giving me foods for I’ll never ever eat those. And if you’ll insist, don’t. For life will only make you a fool. – Kath Panugan
Read moreI heard that you are broken.
To tell you, I was there also. And I don’t know how did I able to escape. One day I just found myself smiling thinking that the person who broke me is now feeling the same pain I’ve been through. Sorry, but equality was never been this satisfying
Read moreWhen will I see the sparkle in your eyes again?
All this time, I thought I was writing for you, when I’ve been writing for myself all along. All this time, I thought we’d meet again in our favorite church, exchanging our gazes and look-aways when we both see each other’s stares. Perhaps, I was just wishing for you to smile at me under the…
Read moreI would gladly accept…
…when I see you with someone that was never named like me. I won’t write about you anymore, and that’s a pinky swear. But, please, don’t you ever visit me again in my dreams because you no longer exist in my memory. You are a past life, a once-upon-a-time but never again, and a ticket…
Read moreAnd if ever you’re longing for my presence,
just visit me in the place where I am resting forever. Don’t forget to bring the most beautiful flower in our garden and my favorite liquor, you know how much I love those. But darling, I love you more than anything in this world, we may not have the best father and daughter bond in…
Read moreTell me how it feels?
And perchance, somewhere in time, we will cross each other’s path again and by that time, I would be lying if I tell thee that I have forgotten every single pain you’ve caused — the pain that I’ve carried within my psyche. Those unsavory noises still hunt me in my sleep, in my darkest moment,…
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