Never your Constant

Perhaps, I was never in my constant. I was a love yet a heartbreak at the same time. I was a coffee spill, a teardop, a heavy breeze or even a journal’s old sheet after all. Somehow, I was the hurricane behind the clouds, the never-ending movie in the cinema, the map of the lost…

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Where It all Started

Dates aren’t vivid, the moment is. You stood on that door and everything’s unsure. Surroundings seem blurry. And all I can see is you. And that’s the moment it all began. A regretful one. – Kath Panugan

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We were once cowards of love after all.

Meet me in our spot, just the same cafe four blocks away from our favorite park within Ludheg’s streetlights. Tell me how did your present life kill you and I will tell you more about mine time by time. Let’s intertwine our fingers and tangle our hearts and feel the stardusts until we could sob…

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If you will fall in love with me,

Don’t. Just don’t. You’ll just end up being sick with my playlists or being deaf with the silence of mine. You’ll just end up regretting giving me foods for I’ll never ever eat those. And if you’ll insist, don’t. For life will only make you a fool. – Kath Panugan

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I heard that you are broken.

To tell you, I was there also. And I don’t know how did I able to escape. One day I just found myself smiling thinking that the person who broke me is now feeling the same pain I’ve been through. Sorry, but equality was never been this satisfying

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When will I see the sparkle in your eyes again?

All this time, I thought I was writing for you, when I’ve been writing for myself all along. All this time, I thought we’d meet again in our favorite church, exchanging our gazes and look-aways when we both see each other’s stares. Perhaps, I was just wishing for you to smile at me under the…

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I would gladly accept…

…when I see you with someone that was never named like me. I won’t write about you anymore, and that’s a pinky swear. But, please, don’t you ever visit me again in my dreams because you no longer exist in my memory. You are a past life, a once-upon-a-time but never again, and a ticket…

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And if ever you’re longing for my presence,

just visit me in the place where I am resting forever. Don’t forget to bring the most beautiful flower in our garden and my favorite liquor, you know how much I love those. But darling, I love you more than anything in this world, we may not have the best father and daughter bond in…

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