Even if we don’t tell, most of us have hard times thinking about how to forget our past. This is where we detach who’s keeping our feelings up until now. When we think we aren’t capable of moving forward again, this is the time where we feel that it’s an impossibility to restart. But love,…
Read moreAll my life,
I have been wondering about the flaws hidden inside my void. That maybe something is actually wrong with me. That maybe it’s not every time I succeed with all the things I wish for. Maybe sometimes, there could be a time where I won’t excel like I’m always used to. I have been grasping for…
Read moreAnd we could be flames of suffering…
but we aren’t. Don’t hold back when you think the sun sets down. Remember, the stars are yet to come home again. – El
Read moreLet yourself bloom…
Because darling, no one is a human to care for your thorns. – El
Read moreIn the darkest hours…
When everything is unsure Who will I call When you are not mine anymore In the darkest hours Will my desire shape the pieces of me Or I will be drowned in reality That there’s no you beside me The bed wasn’t this big It’s a mile wide now that you left And will these…
Read moreHere you are again…
Creating steps to the road less traveled. You are such a risk-taker thinking that there’s something beautiful awaits beyond the horizon. Go on, I’ll push you through that. Make this life a worthy one. – Kath Panugan
Read moreI hope,
I hope you will not spend A moment letting your tears fall down Even a minute or a second I hope you’ll look for the art The art that you have So that you would know That you worth more than Mona Lisa It takes time to heal, I know I’ve been there before And…
Read moreIn the next lifetime,
Put a warning sign Paste it right on your forehead So I wouldn’t spend another lifetime loving someone like you, again. With that warning sign, I would know, there’s a danger awaits if I’ll insist. A lot of pieces of me were scattered already And in my next life, I will just spend my seconds…
Read moreYou are made of petals…
… anyone would dare to touch. You are as red as blood and as soft as lips. What a beautiful rose you are but he picked the sunflower. It didn’t make you less a flower. – Kath Panugan
Read moreKeep that friend…
… who let you wear what you want for she knows you are comfortable with it. Keep that friend who buys you food every time you are craving or you are just hungry. Keep that friend who will get drunk with you and listen to your dramas until 6:00 AM. And keep that friend who…
Read moreHow did I even become a prisoner of your yesterdays?
Today, I’ll stop sending letters and vintage photographs while pretending that I’m still in the ocean of your smiles. Today, I’ll walk away and never look back to the things we used to talk about but never made it to the horizon. Today, I’ll think about how loving myself feels much more than just loving…
Read moreIt’s okay…
…to make your Facebook profile private — it’s hard to thank people falsely praising you. It’s okay to put your earphones on even if your music isn’t playing. You’re tired of giving attention and want to pretend you don’t hear them. It’s okay to post or share sad content. Do whatever you want with your…
Read moreOne day,
a time will come where you feel like you wanted to have a break at some point. It will come, perhaps, with the memories you longed ages ago — and it will feel real than the moment you wished for it. It will feel painful but it won’t cause a heartbreak. It will feel destructive…
Read moreI tried to find myself…
… in different places. In different embraces. In different roles. And in different lives. Until I realized, I was already lost, I don’t know where to go. And oh, I was so dumb. Why do I crave for paradise and different colors of the sky? Why do I want to fly to the moon? Why…
Read moreTrapped in a shady blue…
… of whirlwinds from my past, it was me — it was me howling like thunders and wishing for the night to hush me to sleep amidst the shivering coldness. In that body I was trapped with thorns coming out of an ash green, swaying like I’ve never been this hurt before. People would choose…
Read moreBecause whenever I write…
… I found calmness and peace within me, in my innocent soul, and in my inquisitive mind. And whenever I’m lost in other’s brutal words again—where my mouth couldn’t speak and my eyes couldn’t do anything but to release those heavy tears inside, my hand will always find its way to hold my eloquent stylus…
Read moreI have no doubt that self-love…
… brings so much joy to me. It soothes chaos and awakens my inner desires. Later, I realized that glow up can’t only be achieved through money to buy beauty products rather, acceptance and untangling threads through deep talks between you and your soul shows more vivid result. – Kath Panugan (How to glow up?…
Read moreI once cried.
I remembered how busy I was asking for someone and worrying about how did life went the way they didn’t expect. I was busy building down the broken wall of their systems without noticing how my heart was left with an emotionless void. But I couldn’t remember when was the last time someone asked me…
Read moreAnd even if how often we told ourselves…
… to not think of people’s hearsays about us, we still can’t elude to perceive pain inside. Darling, it is okay for you are still a human being—you have senses and emotions. But even if how much you wanted to take revenge on those people, stop yourself from doing that. It will not heal the…
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