Still, I owe it to the demons of my life.

You do not understand life in just a blink of an eye. It takes time, perhaps a forever to never, but it still guarantees you something even if it isn’t the one you expect. However, we couldn’t even know why it needs to be like that. To be harsh, a little bit of manipulative, a…

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Somewhere in the future,

there will be a time where happiness is too hard to find. You are just there, sitting in the darkest corner of your room while holding an empty bottle of liquor. You are there crying silently. And that is the time you’ll realize you have grown up already. You’ll be full of wounds, you’ll try…

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Yes, I am worthy, too.

Lately, I’ve realized how self-worth should be defined. It would always be something that brings out the victory while being the worst fighter of our own. It would always be about serenading tantrums — whatever it would bring, wherever our feet would take us. It would always be somehow realizing how better you can be…

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As the waves roared by on the seventh…

… by the morning drills, as the sand turned into something more than pixies running over the hour clock, as the sun dropped its magnification beholding its warm rays, and as the stars showed up by the Aurora Borealis forgetting the moon above — I eventually found myself. But, when the waves became silent, the…

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I tried to find myself…

… in different places. In different embraces. In different roles. And in different lives. Until I realized, I was already lost, I don’t know where to go. And oh, I was so dumb. Why do I crave for paradise and different colors of the sky? Why do I want to fly to the moon? Why…

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We sometimes think…

“why am I existing” or “what is my life all about” Well dear, the purpose of life is to give life a purpose. After all, we are made differently. Mend yourself, create your path. You’ll never get lost, you’ve just intersected with somebody’s road. – Razl Teman

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It’s starting to get darker inside.

The coldness lingered through my system as I tried reaching out for the light. Save me. Save me from the monster inside my head. Someone, save me. But nobody said hell is transparent. Nobody said suffering is infinite. And the inevitability of pain is stronger than my weaknesses. No one was there to save me,…

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And there I found you in the darkest rose garden…

… where skies are shaded with gray, where thousands of fireflies are nowhere to be found, and you were there torn between the cloud castle and impositions. You were there drowning in your own tears and eaten by your own thoughts and suddenly, a light gleamed that sealed your naked and swollen eyes—it was me,…

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